World of Haven’t-Played Craft.

As of the past two, three months, I’ve had absolutely no activity in World of Warcraft for several reasons. One, my internet died for a month. Two, my subscription ended when I got my internet back. Three, I haven’t had the motivation enough to go and purchase a new card so I can play again. I’ve been listening to this album by Ars Arcana, called “The Savage Tongue.” It’s all instrumental stuff, basically. Some really epic pieces. The whole album I associate with playing my most recent character in World of Warcraft with, since I listened to the album extensively while playing on him.

Just listening to this makes me wonder what the hell has become of my realm, Steamwheedle Cartel. The place has probably become completely different. Everyone I knew as little infant level 1’s are probably epic’d out level 70’s. It pains me to think about some of the memories I had in game, especially while listening to this album by Ars Arcana. Long and the short of it is, World of Warcraft, to me, is unlike any other game. So much music I have, I associate with memories of points in my World of Warcraft timeline, and with certain characters, and events. I guess it’s just that powerful of a game at points. My life has been moving along quite well without World of Warcraft, but just as of recently, I’ve been itching to get back into the game.

Which, also raises the issue of my character. He’s been “dead” for many months, and suddenly comes back. I have an interesting story for his disappearance, but will anybody who cared about my character even care about him anymore? Will they even remember Tszuriel Candorfin, Sergeant of the Argent Dawn and zombie killer extraordinaire? Probably not. Maybe in my wishful thinking. But maybe a few will. Perhaps I will venture out tomorrow to purchase a 60 Day card and hop back into Azeroth, and resume my life as a Paladin.

Everything is Fine.

Or so it seems to be. My girlfriend finally got back to me. And I guess all I need in life is just to hear her say those magical three words to me. Whenever I read them, I think about how she whispers it to me in my ear, while we’re making love, and it sends shudders down my spine. Maybe I was overreacting. I suppose not everyone can be so attached to their computer as I am. Or attached to another person, as I am.

What got me thinking about my reaction was that, maybe it’s best that at least one of us remains emotionally grounded, and stable. I know, that the only reason I go so insane and enter states of extreme depression, is because I am a deeply sensual and emotional person. I require love to live healthily. But that won’t always be the case, and I often think about finding a girl who is closer to me and relates to me in that way, and is dependent on me, as I am to her and shows it. But as I said, perhaps its best that one of us remains coolheaded about the whole thing because I know, by now, we’d probably both have committed suicide.

Perhaps my mind is clearing up, but whatever it is, I know that my girlfriend is the only girl in my life I could ever imagine being with. I would go to any length to maintain our relationship’s love, and I would do anything humanly possible to keep her love. She means the world to me, and I just hope I mean the same to her. I guess different people have different ways of expressing themselves. And after all, she is just a young girl. I know she has a good heart, and she means well though. She’s made me the person I am today, and everyday that goes by, I am continually forged by her love for me in some manner.

She’s made me a stronger person. Hell, even a more handsome one. I grew out my hair, I got a new look, I’ve got my ear pierced just recently, and I’m more confident. I can thank her for any small amount of success I’ve had since before she entered my life. So I would like to thank her from the bottom of my heart. I love her, and I always will. I’m tied to her at the heart. There will be times when I’m unsure of her feelings for me, but I guess that’s natural for someone like me, a “Cancer” on the Horoscope chart. She’ll always be the one closest to my heart, and I just hope it’s the same with me to her.