Well it seems I’ve somewhat, if not completely, recovered from the whole crisis I’ve had for a few days now. I turned something that I thought was bad, into an opportunity. I’ve decided that right about now, it’d be a good time to at least start figuring out my options. I always have trusty Espinthebottle at my side, however, it’s tricky to use successfully. But I’m approaching things with a new attitude now. I really don’t care if things work out, or don’t in terms of dating. I’m just going in hopeful, but not expecting much. However, I’m much more willing to wait now. Wait until an age when the timing is right to strike. Although this may not be so long from now, it’s still going to feel quite long. Mostly because now I have nothing to do on the weekends, and my weeks are crawling like a bitch.
But anyway, I’m willing to be patient. Very patient. As patient as I need to be to find my true love. If I get some dates along the way, that’d be great. And I’m certain I will (with who, I don’t know.) But, if anything, I know I’ll truly be happy if I’m patient enough to find that special someone in a few years. And hopefully it’ll work out the way I intend. Although nothing seems to work out in my life. For example, I get dumped for having low self esteem and being a burden, at a time when I was just starting to love myself and try not to worry too much. I understand it’s difficult to be patient, but come on…that was some bad timing, and quite unfortunate for me. In any case, there was nothing I could do to stop this whole thing, and I guess I just have to make the best of the situation, and use what I was just beginning to learn in my favor. I’m special, I’m unique, and I’m on the market. So many possibilities when you love yourself, huh?
I guess this was all for the better actually. When I walk down the hallways, and streets, I no longer hang my head in worry over my ex, I walk tall, I look straight up, and it’s no facade. Not a facade like the posture I held while with my ex. Not a facade of false security. Now, it’s genuine. I have learned to love myself, and I’ll be damned if I’d ever say another bad thing about myself again, because there’s worse things in life. I’ll be damned if I ever look down while walking, or slouch. I’ll be damned if I ever worry about another friggin’ thing in my life. I’m walking tall, walking proud, walking with a determined heart, and ready to face up to any challenge.
