Well, my Summer has pretty much JUST started (Summer school just ended. Now that I’m completely without a purpose I can sit and waste away in my own laziness.) I, for the first time in a decade, have passed a math class, and not just passed it, but passed it with flying colors. Everyone says “Gee, you must be really smart in math!” And, I can see why they’d say that, seeing as they all observe my obvious Asian heritage and think I’m just another math wizz, but all I have to say to them is that, no, I’m not smart in math. I simply put my nose to the grindstone and worked hard when it counted. I ignored everything else, shut myself down, and worked. Work, a strong work ethic is vital to all aspects of life, and with it, you can conquer anything. It’s all about maturity and knowing what you want in life. Discipline, and perseverance.
Before this, I really never had much discipline, especially in terms of school, and more specifically, math. But now that I’ve passed a math class with an A, I’ve proved to myself that I indeed, do have discipline and can perform when it comes time to. A 94 on the final? Well that just proves everything to me. Not a day missed, not a single missed homework, or failed test. But moving on from that, I’ve been having to confront several issues within me that have been tearing at me constantly. Two things, really, from my past. World of Warcraft, and my Ex-girlfriend. I want both of them back, but I know that having either or of them would probably affect me adversely in some way. The WoW habit, which I thought I kicked, seems to be like some sort of crack addiction. You think you’ve defeated it and then some part of your experience from WoW comes back and makes you want to play again.
Same ordeal with my ex. I think of the good things and I instantly want to date her again. I have to remember that it’s not the good things, for there’ll be good things in all aspects of life. But the past is the past and I can’t malinger around with artifacts from my past. I need to move on. The second I learn how to do that, I think I’ll be happy. In terms of MMO games, I’m sure that buying a new computer and getting Age of Conan will more than suffice the requirement of replacing WoW. Finding a new lover, on the other hand, will be a tad bit more difficult.
